Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 37

aku sdar, past entries aku byk gile entries yg emo. no this entry. this entry aku nk story about someone yg aku banyak take for granted. last selase, ade kwn aku dtg lecture ngan muke yg ketat gile. so mcm biase, sbg kwn yg baik, aku ngan sorang lg membe tnye lah knape. then, die bgtau yg die ade msalah family. x pe, nothings perfect kan.. then bile die cerite aku realize yg slame ni, aku ade sorang father yg sgt hebat. seorang abah yg sgt penting kn ank2nye. kalau kwn aku notice, aku hampir menangis mase die cerite masalh die kat aku. bkn sebab aku emo ke ape ke, tapi mse tu aku realize yg walaupun abah x perfect die tetap the best bg aku

antara pengorbanan yg abah selalu buat untuk anak2 die:
1) abah selalu pakai baju murah2 je. padahal ank2 die, jeans kalau 10ringgit mmg x pndng lah.
2) shopping bundle? ape barang. tpi abah, beli baju, slack untuk die pakai g keja pun kat bundle je. itu pun balik dengan banggenye tunjuk seluar, baju baru die. last2 kene kutuk je ngan ank2 sebab x de klass pakai baju bundle.
3) baju2 abah sume dibeli mase clearence stock. katenye abah x suke pakai baju mahal2. tapi ank2 die baju 39.90. itu pun katenye x cukup mahal.
4) abah kalau lauk tinggal sikit, sanggup die x mkn, aku tau die cover. sebenarnye, abh nk lauk tu tapi die ingt ank2 die x mkn lagi. last2 die ckp ngan mak, x pe.. i mkn telur goreng je pun x pe.
5) dompet abah da brape tahun x tukar. sampai da buruk gile dompetnye. kulit pun da x nmpk mcm kulit. pdhal beg aku baru tali die da buruk sibuk nk beli beg baru. tu pun harge smpai 100 over. brand mest ade. x best lah x de brand padahal abah punye dompet tu da bertahun2 x penah ditukar. 6) abah slalu hntr ank2 die g mane2. tanggungjawab die katenye. dulu aku nk mkn pizza ngan membe aku kat cs wktu mlm pun sibuk2 je nk hntr aku. katenye pompuan ni bahaye kalau nk keluar malam. last2 abah jugak lah yg kene hantr aku, kena amik aku.

sekarang aku janji aku akn lebih treasure abah dari dulu. aku x kn wish for another father sebab he the best. maybe hes not a perfect father after all, but yes! he is the best for me.

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 36

ok, i hate myself for doing what i've done
clearly, thats not a mistake.
seriously,
that's stupid
the most stupid thing that i have done.
can i just killed myself
ok, thats stupid too
killing myself is not the answer to my stupidness
it shows and prove that i am stupid
dangg!
ok, what about killing him
there!
solved!
sorry, i just have to kill u to make me feel batter
see u in hell!
im not going to hell
im just going to see u from heaven
haha!
=]
smiling but my heart is crying

Sibuk sane sibuk sini: Babak 35

Can i have him? please.. pleasee.. i'll do anything.. vic, do u mind be my lover? haha. ok2. start lg. ok! aku admit. aku mmg suke berangan. tambah2 lagi dengan mamat ni.. can i have your babies? lets get married.. haha. vic, u nk tau? i suke gle2 ah ngan u. i penah mimpi u tau! tapi i lupe i mimpi ape mse tu. x penting kan? u suke i jugak x? tlg lah ckp u suke i. kalau x, mane i nk letak muke i? kat bawah tilam ke, kat bawah bantal kah? ke kat bawah meja study i yg panas gle2 ni? x pe vic, as long as cinte i untuk u ikhlas, i know u akn terime i one day. promise? =p

baby, baby.. baby comellah.. nk jadi mcm baby jugak. berak org basuh, mkn org suap. malam2 nangis pun x de sape marah. da besar x best. sume kene buat sendri. assignment lagi. nk kene cari bukti lah, figures lah. adui. x pe miss, i promise i'll do that later. let me enjoy the time where im dreaming of having these cute babies. eh! nk twins jugak! mane nk cari husband yg ade genetic twin ni? anyway, mase pnjng lg. harus tingkatkan usaha. dimana ada kemahuan di situ ada jalan. kn?

anyway, just for reminder, im not hani lagi. im TIARA now.haha. sengal gile. whatever. as TIARA i've done something that Hani would never do! go TIARA go. haha

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 34

Lyrics to Beauty In The Eyes Of The Beholder :

Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God where do I run?
Your message holds true though we fall short

We're all trying to let ourselves know the secrets, they give us the hope
We've recognized and realized these voices will tell us where to go

Bring your love down Father, I'm giving You my shield and my sword
So that You can guide me

Too many times I've tried
But the ever so inviting say
Take a hold of me
Not now, not tonight

Ask me please, these questions that I answer desperately,
In search of something more
The memories of my past I can't seem to overcome, to overcome
But millions upon millions seem to forget, Your love is real
Not the ways of the world
Your love is so real
Your love is so real

And I will open my ears, and I will open my heart
Just to hear what You want me to hear [2x]

And incline Your ear to my ear [4x]

OH GOD, we were wrong [4x]

Incline Your ear to my ear

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 33

ok, entry kali ni rare skit. dipenuhi gmbr daus. bukannye banyak sangatpun. 4 je kan. kali ni, aku contribute this entry for daus. daus, thank you for being such a cutie during the last concert. b4 this, im a fan of shahir. im still his fan. but i like you more now. haha.

daus is the second runner up during that night. kire ok lah. sape kate daus x de bakat? adlin, walaupun die x de bakat, hes such a cupcake, so cute and adorable. rase mcm nk cubit2 je pipi die bile die senyum.


ok, this u must do! click on the image and read the interview. hes so innocent. well, at least he looked innocent in my eyes

daus, in the nutshell..
u are so damn cute.

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 32

haha. i just read my last entry. wah2. bahase. kasar nye. ni sume influence Jefree Star lah. asyik nyanyi lagu lollipop luxury je. haha. crap. lagu pun mengarut2 je. wanna see him? wait, aku upload some pix of Jefree Star. im quite sure u are going to be so shocked by just looking at him.


haha. meet mr jefree star. mr or miss. well, i dont know.



ok, being honest. this pictures kinda epic. i love the second one more. haha.

what i like most about jefree star is: his confidence level. tinggi smpai ke langit ke tujuh. i mean, if u can dress up like that and still call urself beautiful. well, i am proud of u. if aku, no way man. aku pakai eye liner tebal skit pun siap cari tisu nk lap. tkt org kate aku over plak.

this dude here loves rap music. and believe this, die penah rap ngan hollywood undead kot. not to forget, he loves gangter rap. darwish, sumpah ni geng hang. suke sgt rap. to be honest, rap is so not my genre. die jugak ade obsessive compulsive disorder. its a mental disorder. Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is a mental disorder characterized by intrusive thought that produce , by repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing anxiety, or by a combination of such thoughts anxiety (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsion). i got this from my unofficial kitab, Wikipedia.

im feeling kinda gay for liking him. aku pun x tau ape lah yg aku nmpk kat Miss Jefree Star ni.

p/s: Quotes of the day:
"Fuck me. Im a celebrity. Cant take ur eyes of me. I make u fuck me just to get somewhere"
wah2! byk gle fuck kat situ. ni kalau mak aku bace ni. mest kene tarik tlinge ni. haha

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 31

kali ni, aku nk start blog aku dgn wtf!! wah, epik skit sial! haha. de sial ni, teringat aku ngan si darwish. asyik2 kate aku murtad. da jadi org kl. excuse me Mr Dar! haha. aku pun x tau knape ttbe aku jd org kl. mungkin aku lupe diri kot. x pe Dar! depan hang, aku ckp kedah yg pekat2 punya ok? haha.

ok, im going back to UiTM. kinda sucks though. abah yg iye2 sgt asking me to stay dkt hostel next sem. ok! thats not a good news! im not happy with that.

so! ttbe i ran out of ideas. so many things running in my head. tdi ade je idea. ttbe da hilang. ah! lantak lah. aku nk hidup ngan aman skarang ni. blog or no blog, fuck off!

p/s: yah, care aku tulis blog mmg da ubh. so what? biar lah. retorik dunia.