Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 32

haha. i just read my last entry. wah2. bahase. kasar nye. ni sume influence Jefree Star lah. asyik nyanyi lagu lollipop luxury je. haha. crap. lagu pun mengarut2 je. wanna see him? wait, aku upload some pix of Jefree Star. im quite sure u are going to be so shocked by just looking at him.


haha. meet mr jefree star. mr or miss. well, i dont know.



ok, being honest. this pictures kinda epic. i love the second one more. haha.

what i like most about jefree star is: his confidence level. tinggi smpai ke langit ke tujuh. i mean, if u can dress up like that and still call urself beautiful. well, i am proud of u. if aku, no way man. aku pakai eye liner tebal skit pun siap cari tisu nk lap. tkt org kate aku over plak.

this dude here loves rap music. and believe this, die penah rap ngan hollywood undead kot. not to forget, he loves gangter rap. darwish, sumpah ni geng hang. suke sgt rap. to be honest, rap is so not my genre. die jugak ade obsessive compulsive disorder. its a mental disorder. Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is a mental disorder characterized by intrusive thought that produce , by repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing anxiety, or by a combination of such thoughts anxiety (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsion). i got this from my unofficial kitab, Wikipedia.

im feeling kinda gay for liking him. aku pun x tau ape lah yg aku nmpk kat Miss Jefree Star ni.

p/s: Quotes of the day:
"Fuck me. Im a celebrity. Cant take ur eyes of me. I make u fuck me just to get somewhere"
wah2! byk gle fuck kat situ. ni kalau mak aku bace ni. mest kene tarik tlinge ni. haha

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 31

kali ni, aku nk start blog aku dgn wtf!! wah, epik skit sial! haha. de sial ni, teringat aku ngan si darwish. asyik2 kate aku murtad. da jadi org kl. excuse me Mr Dar! haha. aku pun x tau knape ttbe aku jd org kl. mungkin aku lupe diri kot. x pe Dar! depan hang, aku ckp kedah yg pekat2 punya ok? haha.

ok, im going back to UiTM. kinda sucks though. abah yg iye2 sgt asking me to stay dkt hostel next sem. ok! thats not a good news! im not happy with that.

so! ttbe i ran out of ideas. so many things running in my head. tdi ade je idea. ttbe da hilang. ah! lantak lah. aku nk hidup ngan aman skarang ni. blog or no blog, fuck off!

p/s: yah, care aku tulis blog mmg da ubh. so what? biar lah. retorik dunia.

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 30

i just went to check out his facebook just now.
then i saw
IN A RELATIONSHIP
wah!
hancur berkecai hati aku
i know i should not open his facebook.
it makes my heart hurts.
so wounded.
im speechless
i need to tell this to someone
i need somebody to talk to
i feel like crying now
i know we just broke up
i know its wrong to feel this way towards him
im sorry
but deep inside my heart
i still miss him
damn!

god please, i want to let him go. just let him be happy. but please, i need my happiness to. i hate reminiscing about our relationship that just gone. i hate this. just make me forget everything about him. please..

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 29

ok,
he is gone too soon
ish!
sorry shahir, i ske u, tpi x berkesempatan tuk undi plak.
haha
konon2 shahir fanatic lah kan
padahal, x penah undi pown
soo not my fault
if die menang pown, ade ke die nk share2 hadiah die
x de kan?
so, ape gune?

ok, hani!
lupekan dia
grow up girl
hes not yours anymore
he never thought of u
buang sume perasaan jiwang tu
go in front of his face and scream
"FUCK OFF! I HATE U!"
wah, i dream of that moment every single day
wish i can do that

p/s: Quotes of the day:
"Everything's so wrong and i dont belong living in your precious memory"
Vanessa Carlton-A thousand miles.
haha. this song is epic. skrang baru aku minat. seriusly suke gle ngan lagu ni.

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 28

Say NO to couple.
sengaje aku bold and besarkan tulisan tu
bukan ape, tkt aku sendri yg bute
ataupown aku sndri yg buat2 x nmpk
this could be the best title for this entry
kali ni, aku da bet ngan hana
aku x nk couple2 lagi.
bkn larh sampai bile2
aku x anti laki mcm ain.
aku cume nk neutral feeling
x de rase nk bercinte2 lagi.
cukup lah kali ni je
aku rase sakit yang amat sgt
rindu yang melampau2
tangisan yang aku sendri x dapat halang.

cukup cukup
aku penat ngan drama ni
mcm dalam af je
sume di provokasi
aku x nk hidup mcm tu
penuh dengan kepura puraan

aku menyesal
tapi x pe
pengalaman mengajar aku utk menjadi lebih dewasa
lebih berhati hati dlam bercinta
x mudah untuk aku percaya lagi sume janji2 manis lelaki
mungkin die ucapkan bende tu tanpe die sedar yang aku percaya dengan setiap yg die ucapkan

hidup bukan mcm dlm cite hndustan
kalau x de kesudahan yg baik, cerita masih belum siap
aku nk cari dalam filem om shanti om
tapi bontot aku berat
malas nk bgun
semantara otak masih fresh
aku nk habis kan kerja aku

this entry is for my darling sister
haha
geli je panggil die mcm tu
x pe
if aku boleyh pggl x-bf aku sayang
x kan aku x bleyh pggl adk sndri darling
sedangkan kami lahir dari perut yang same
di hasilkan dari sperm org yg sama

hana,
dgn ini aku berjanji xkan couple smpai aku habis sem 3 ni
jgn salah sangka kalau aku ber"sayang2" ngan sape2
bukan senang untuk aku replace Bangla aku
hang pown tau bertapa aku sygkan die
byk nye aku berkorban untuk die
tapi aku x kisah sume tu
mungkin inilah yang dinamakan takdir
ataupown org tua2 selalu cakap "x de jodoh"
mungkin ade yang lebih baik menanti aku.

jadi,
saye NURHANI BT MOHAMAD SHUKRI berjanji tidak akan berjiwang2 lagi. aku jugak dgn ini menyeru cabaran johan utk tidak menangis atas benda yg not worth it

to my Bangla,
although u wont be reading this, i just wanna say, thanks for the memories. u are something in my life. but now, not anymore. i believe in karma. i hope u will feel what i feel the moment we broke up. so, i wish u the best Bangla!

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 27

i just love the last quote
"we're just silly little girls who fall for stupid boys"
yah!
i admit
im just a silly girl who fall in love and thought it was a true love
thats just lame!
buduh larh sial
mane ade true except love tuk allah and family.
aku x bleyh syg family aku mcm aku syg die
itu nafsu namenye
bukan cinte
x pe larh.
mungkin x de jodoh
aku kne accept sume ni
mmg susah
tpi aku kene fikir, ramai org lagi hdup susah dari aku
aku ade makan, pkai, umah, fmily aku
kire boleyh kate perfect larh.
mungkin x de cinte je
tpi itu bkn keperluan
itu kemahuan
blog ni bkn tuk tangisi bende yg lepas
cume nk abadikan ape yg terjadi so bende ni kan terpahat kat memory aku
one day, i'll look back and thought how stupid of me to act like that
that time will come
soon.

p/s: Quotes of the day:
" Raja ki aayegi baaraat rangili hogi raat magan main nachoongi ho magan main nachoongi"
ok, aku tau ini sangat menggelikan. tpi aku suke lagu ni. mksdnye pown best jgak. kire kene larh ngan org pts cinte mcm aku ni. still layan lg rase2 jiwang tu kan. haha. translation: on a colourful night, when the prince away to marry and i danced to my heart content. hurmh. life goes on! be strong girl!

Sibuk sane, sibuk sini: Babak 26

i just wanna apologize for my previous entry was a mess

malas larh nk edit.
ketegaq sgt font tu pown.
last2 aku fed up je.
entry kali ni agk memualkan
hari ni, aku nk layan jiwang je arh
wtf man!
aku da jiwang aku geli jugak sebenarnye
somehow, i feel the song is closely related to me
kesian ngan aku kalau bce je lyric tu, confirm tau ape kene ngan aku.

agnes monica-teruskanlah

Pernahkah kau bicara
Tapi tak didengar
Tak dianggap
Sama sekali..
Pernahkan kau tak salah
Tapi disalahkan
Tak diberi Kesempatan
Kuhidup dengan siapa
Ku tak tau kau siapa
Kau kekasihku tapi
Orang lain bagiku
Kau dengan dirimu saja
Kau dengan duniamu saja
Teruskanlah..
Teruskanlah
Kau begitu..
Kau tak butuh diriku
Aku patung bagimu
Cinta bukan kebutuhanmu..
..

p/s: Quotes of the day:
"If i has to choose between loving you, and breathing. I would use my last breath to say
I LOVE YOU. "
i just randomly picked this quotes from a website. i dont believe that i could do that. sbb last saying yang aku NAK SANGAT ckp before aku mati "Ashaduallailahaillah, waashhaduannamuhammadarasulullah"